When you've had weight pbs once, you have to know that you will never get rid of them. Never totally. Like I have said in another entry, I have been obese. I have lost all that amount of kilos. It's been hard and I was kinda proud of myself. Like anyone else, in the same situation I suppose. I have tried to stabilize things. It worked for some time -almost 2 years- mostly because I was very careful with all I could eat. Not a diet, just careful. But I have been pretty careless during winter. I guess that the little depressed episode isn't innocent. Anyway, some kilos are back. Not many but already enough to light up warning lights. And of course, the bad feelings are back too. I feel just pityfull, ill at ease, like I was when I had all that weight on. It's just an awfull feeling. Of course, I will fight. But I feel so bad that I really wonder why and what for....I hate myself when I'm like that.