Just had my brother on the phone. He confirmed what I had been fearing for some time, but refusing to accept. My father is probably suffering cancer. He talked to his dr, who happens to be my dad's too. All the symptoms as well as the situation point it out. But we won't know for sure as my dad refuses to see any dr, for reasons I won't hint at here. The irony lies in the fact that I've lost my mum from the same cancer, 10 years ago. A matter of time now. I don't know if it's anger, disgust, despair that I'm suffering the most.