Sorry about your mom
Thanks for sharing and it makes sense!
I like internal medicine very much, because it's the basics, but here in Portugal that means having no personal life at all, your job is your life. And I don't want that for me. When the time comes for me to choose, I will certainly take may factors in consideration, and having time for myself, my family and friends will be a huge one.
Some peole will say I am not a true doctor and I am not commited enough.
I don't care, just like an engineer has a life besides his job, all the doctors are entiled to that as well.
I want to help people and I want to be good at it, but I like other stuff as well.