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Posted 09-07-2005 at 04:07 PM by

Coming here reminded me again of Leonid's death. Which still makes me sad, for some reason.... I mean, I didn't even know the guy, or was such a big fan..... always thought of him as a bit of a show off, u know.... slippery, slick kind of guy.... look-at-me-I'm-cool-because-I-do-music-and-hang-around-ppl-with-cash-and dress-like-I-don't-care-because-I'm-such-a-talented-rebel-blah-blah-a misunderstood-genius- and-chicks-love-me-because-of-that-blah-blah-blah.... I even have a bike to prove it and like to ride it fast at night with no helmet on, and feel like I'm untouchable..... love it!

But he's not. He's dead. Isn't that tragic? Incredibly, stupidly tragic.

Now, I'm not bad-mouthing him or anything.... because I genuinely think that underneath all that he was an ok guy. And I also think him and Marat were real friends beyond that "Yo, mah man! Yo, dude!" type of friendship...


I have this annoying thing I do all the time..... I try to imagine myself in other ppl's shoes.... being Leonid, going home after some party/dinner/whatever, riding my bike like I always do, on a road I know, thinking abt some random thing .... like the fact that I'm tired and want to get home faster..... and then suddenly.....................

..................and the day had started so normal.


Or being Leonid's friend, going home with some friends after the same party and thinking I should check up on him..... I call and wait for him to answer..... everybody is laughing around me at some joke and I laugh too.... and then somebody answers and I think it's him: "Dude, didja get home ok?" I say, still half laughing at the joke..................... five minutes later............. all his friends know.


Or being Marat and seeing Leonid's sister's phone number flash on my mobile's screen and thinking "Hehe! What, did somebody steal my car again? " ..... and then..........


I could go on.



Just ignore me, I have an incredible talent for getting myself depressed.


What a stupid waste of life.
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    Sugar Kane's Avatar

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    Nu fi deprimata, o sa stam noi in mustati ca sa te facem sa razi
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    Posted 09-07-2005 at 04:44 PM by Sugar Kane Sugar Kane is offline
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    Sandra's Avatar

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    Lasa ca sunt si altii care au fost deprimati din cauza asta..offf poate suna mean vroiam sa zic ca e normal sa fii deprimata ..mie mi-a venit sa plang si nici macar nu il stiam...apoi cand m-am gandit si al ce simte Marat .....da da mi-au dat lacrimile
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    Posted 09-07-2005 at 07:09 PM by Sandra Sandra is offline
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    Posted 09-08-2005 at 08:48 PM by tall_one tall_one is offline
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    Meeek's Avatar

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    I've been thinkin about it quite a bit too.
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    Posted 09-09-2005 at 10:03 AM by Meeek Meeek is offline
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    Feel better, Dora. :hug:
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    Posted 09-09-2005 at 05:26 PM by jmp
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    AnnieNik's Avatar

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    It;'s amazing how one thing could cause the same feelings and thoughts to completely different people (even far away). You just got the words from my head. I was way too depressed to write them down.
    That's life.
    Show must go on.
    s to all, who need it.
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    Posted 09-09-2005 at 08:49 PM by AnnieNik AnnieNik is offline
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    Curls's Avatar

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    WOW ... you've written many of my thoughts too ... yes, days start as normal and for many can take horrible tragic twists and turns ... goes to show, Fame & Fortune offer no protection ... please God keep our Marat safe

    Poor Leonid, Poor Marat
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    Posted 09-16-2005 at 08:02 AM by Curls Curls is offline
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    Posted 10-02-2005 at 01:16 PM by Magda Magda is offline
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    Friday, October 21st

    :wavey: Hi Dora :)
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    Posted 10-21-2005 at 03:51 PM by jmp
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    Ceau Dora :wavey:
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    Posted 09-15-2006 at 07:02 PM by Ico
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    Fergie's Avatar

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    First time I read your blog
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    Posted 10-26-2006 at 10:02 PM by Fergie Fergie is offline
 
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