OK... I had written an almost-full report of my RG experience, and I hit the wrong key and lost everything before I could post.
I think I'm just having a generally crappy day, so I'll stop there and start again tomorrow.
To tell the truth, right now, I am devastated because I was never able to see Ferru practice. I was still clinging to the hope of maybe seeing him tomorrow (it's weird because I did get to see him very well on court 2, AND I got an autograph, but somehow I cannot get over the fact that over the 4 days I spent there, I was unable to watch him practice even though I did pretty much everything in my power to make this happen).
And well, after reviewing my options very thoroughly, looking at how much money I can afford to spend, how much I have spent already, how much energy it would take to get up at 3 in the morning to go back to Paris, then go home in the evening, find someone to share a car in both directions because I cannot afford the train... and all that with always the possibility of finding myself locked out of his practice again if he happens to be on Chatrier, I reached the conclusion that it was completely unreasonable to go there tomorrow, and that the only reason why I am even considering it is that I am unable to let go and accept that I am not going to get this, and I should be already happy with what I had. But happy is definitely not what defines my state of mind right now.
So I think I'll just go to bed, I'll try to write a report tomorrow, and maybe in a few days I will stop having my withdrawal syndome or post-partum or whatever it is that makes me feel very depressed right now. Ferru going to the final might help...
Anyway, I'm actually hoping that pictures won't pop up on Twitter tomorrow showing him practicing on a small court, because that would probably be the last straw