- Thanks Mark, really – I said getting out before hotel in Toronto.
Mark get out behind me.
- No problem. But I still don’t understand why didn’t you go with Lawrence?
- Because he went four days ago and he’ll be here tomorrow.
- And? – Mark loved to get on my nerves
- And he didn’t went alone.
- He went with Amy.
- Stop that Mark. You makes me mad.
Mark caught me.
- Do you have to stay? – he asked
- Yes I have to.
- What but? You are going with Corri to Italy anyway – I “escape” from his arms – Go.
- Ok, so see you next week –he said kissing my cheek
- Yeah, maybe, we’ll see.
Mark got into car and went away. It was close to sunset and we went yesterday very early. I want Mark to stay at night but he said that if drive by night he will be home quicker. He was supposed to call when he’ll be back. No matter what hour will be. “ I’m not going to think about him” – I thought, but when I went to hotel I was thinking only about him. But it was short moment. When I take keys from reception and turn round to go to elevator I saw Juan. I want to turn round and leave but it was to late. He saw me too. Sp, I stood there looking him coming closer to me. He looks so sexy in jeans and T-shirt. I understand that I still love him. Mark or anyone else stop exist in that moment.. When he came to me I was trying to behave myself naturally but it didn’t came out right. I wasn’t looking at him.
- We must talk – he said
- Juan, I…
- Come on.
He take my bag and we go to elevator. He pressed 7th floor button. We go to his room. I sit on his bed still don’t looking at him. I still loved him. In my head I heard stupid words from which I was so laughing with JMG when he send it to me by sms: “my treasure…my heart, my acuteness, my gentles…. it’s all hide deeply in my soul….don’t try to fight the feelin’ just look into my eyes…find my precious and kiss…kiss like no one before….let my soul fly…”.
- Sarah look at me – he said – Sarah…
I still had my head down. He squat down leaning on my knees.
- What has happened with us? – he said – I thought that I’m important for you maybe a little, after everything you have told me, what I have told you. I trusted you. And you…. You have left me.
I understand how strong I hurt him, that he didn’t hurt me, it was me who make it bad. Juan stand up. I look at him.
- I…. – I said – I’m sorry now I know what I have done. What I have done to you. That I ruined it. Everything what was between us – I stand up – I know that you will never forgive me.
I started to walk through the door. Juan caught my hand. I turn to him and looked into his warm, brown eyes. Next moment I was in his arms. I feel really happy. I feel his warm body so close to mine. I put my arms around his neck and walk back few steps to look into his eyes. He smiled to me. There was the thing I missed the most.
- And know tell me what is going on between you and Andy?
I told him about everything. When she came into his life and Andy started lying me, how I start to loosing him. And then about our argument. The biggest argument we have ever had, and honestly I didn’t remember reason of it. Juan said that I should make up with him. “But he started” – I answer. Now I’m not sure if it’s only his fault.
Then we went play tennis. I thought that they will strangle me. Carlos Moya, Tommy Robredo, Feli Lopez and Nando Verdasco. They were really glad that I come and I finally met hope of Spanish tennis, my sunshine, Rafael Nadal.
I was at every Andy’s match. On final too. My fingers hurt ‘cause I was keeping them crossed so hard. When he won I want to hug him and congratulate but SHE was more important.
With Juan it was like it used to be, but I make close friendship with Rafa. I loved him. I could spend all days with him. Every time we were seeing each others I was in his arms. Someone might think that we were together but it was impossible. I never had trusted someone while knowing him just 3 days. But Rafa was my sunshine, he is two years younger but he is light point in my life. My sunshine.
After week we have to say goodbye and that was the worst. I was suppose to see Juan in few weeks at US Open. What about the others? They promise to come.
next part soon