I don't understand it when people say they are not sure whether they were in love or not - once you're in love there's no room left for doubt - you just know it...!
All of my loves were torture, but the worst one was in my first year of high-school
She was (and probably still is, only more-so) gorgeous and I knew I was in trouble pretty much the moment I saw her...
From that moment on the following couple of years were nightmare - hardly sleeping, barely smiling, yes folks - love isn't about having fun most of the time...
Anyway, since I had been too young to know the rules I was rather open about my feelings (I actually revealed it all on new-year's eve of that year when I was totally drank - and that was when I was merely 14
), and for some reason she found that attractive that a man (or a boy, for that matter...) is so romantic and open about the way he feels that she didn't turn me down - she put me on standby instead
After six fricking months of cursing the day I'd been born she finally made her mind up to give it a try, and we were together for 7 months - painful most of the time but with some glorious moments - since we lived in a rural area we had many romantic moments, I used to hitchhike to her (when my parents weren't aware) to make out in her room, where her old-fashioned father thought his
daughter was merely playing cards
, and there was a lake nearby where we used to sneak away from everyone and kiss
But it was never enough for me, and I was rather melancholy most of the time, and when we broke up I kept loving her secretly for about one more year and had some real-tough time getting over
Anyway, ever since then I've been rather cautious about matters of the heart, but one terrific woman that caught me off guard at least left me a poem:
"Your body and mind might thrive in quickness, but when it comes to the heart it's like floating in space - travel like a comet and you'll burn out"
(I hope I remember correctly).
She was THE most wonderful woman I've ever known...and probably the only time I didn't regret falling in love.