OK, so since I've been gone, my primary focus has been on my appearance, as usual, but now even more so. I've had a lot of time on my hands from being off a school a lot, it's been cold, and I've been taking care of my grandfather who is back home from the hospital after breaking his leg last May, so I've been in the house and able to really focus on my looks.
The past weeks, this has been my general eating habit:
Small/medium size bowl of oatmeal or an apple.
Small/medium size bowl of oatmeal; a salad; or occasionally an egg salad sandwich(es).
Salad and/or green with tons of spice to quicken my metabolism; fish with tons of spice; occasionally spaghetti.
I drink 4 ice cold bottles of waters per day between meals, which I will see if I can bump up to 5. I don't drink anything else but water.
So, my grandparents are basically scared because they say I have an eating disorder. My best friend Marty says I look completely different. My aunt, whose a doctor, said I have a mental disorder which results in me not eating.
Personally, I don't think I have an eating disorder. I eat what I want to eat and don't eat bullshit. I ONLY eat like this for appearance reasons. I do NOT care about any other reasoning behind eating like this, because if I could, I would eat pizza, cake and ice cream, but I can't, because emotionally I will feel like shit if I do and I will freak out. I would stay inside and do nothing if I were/felt ugly. Being ugly for me is just horrible. Life is too short to be ugly and be unhappy about being ugly. I care about my appearance exponentially more than I care about food, or eating. I like to eat but it will never get in the way of my appearance.
Anyway, my question for everyone is, do YOU think I have an eating disorder? And if so, why? The reason I ask this is partially to toot my own horn, because I love my eating habits and think if people want to have a slim figure and structured face, my way is the way to eat. But I also want to hear from third party, non-family/personal RL friend sources about my eating habits, because occasionally I have felt sick, just yesterday, I was craving an egg salad sandwich but I resisted the urge. I honestly think I just have self-control to know certain things I can and can't eat, and I have a goal that I want to reach and am basically there. But I also sort of need a different perspective, to help me see if what I'm doing is actually beneficial for me or not in the end.
Anyway, vote up people, thanks
P.S. Mods I BEG of you not to close nor merge this thread with anything else. I PLEAD that you don't and respect my wishes. Thanks.