I've been lurking on and off since RG started
I've some pretty serious health issues this year which have been hard to accept - I'm sure you can all imagine how bitter I've been. Why couldn't this have happened to my sister or best friend? I can be supportive for others but when I'm in trouble I go into DOOM! DOOM! mode. Anyway, hopefully the worst is behind me now.
Silver lining: I've become much more tolerant - almost zen.
Not as sorry as me
I had a conversation with a school friend last Christmas about how statistically we should be seeing some early deaths from our old classmates. We were trying to remember if anyone had died and I made a list of people that I thought might die young and another list of people I wouldn't mind dying
Then just a few weeks later my mortality raises it's head.
Now I try to be a better person.
Sounds rough. Hope you get better soon.
A former classmate of mine committed suicide, largely out of the blue, about a month ago. And only a week or so after that a guy also my age I half knew from the rural area here got killed in a motorcycle accident.
The funeral for my former classmate was probably the toughest thing I have ever gone through. Even worse than the one for my grandmother who died in februrary, as she had gradually disappared as a person for ten years prior.